I'm paying dearly for past mistakes
I felt as if things were becoming a bit clearer earlier on, but can now see everything falling to pieces before my eyes
I never realised how one mistake in my life some three or four years ago would make me feel how I do ?
I struggle between what I know is right in my own mind, and some warped truthfulness as seen through other people's eyes. Who have no heart, and can't see the difference anyway.
The struggle between man's conscience and his heart until things go too far. get out of hand, and can never be repaired.
Is everything so worthless in the end ? Is there any more ?
What lies beyond ? What is left to carry on ?
last few days, i feel so sin
it mostly at that time i was very drunk and bloody messy, that thing we often do, things that make you ask,
what's wrong with them? I don't understand, but when I woke up and realized,
I was promised I would not do it again but when I met the fuckin' flock , I do it again.
and woke up again and then realized again and do it again. fake's sake !
